I'm feeling something intense right now but I don't know what it is. It has to do with the weather. It has to do with highschool, who I was, who I wanted to be, who I am. And somehow that relates to what I am now, and who I want to be, and who I'm going to become.
I won't be home to put up Halloween decorations on Halloween after the Halloween Carnival at Brookstone. I no longer attend Thursday morning bible study at the train station Burger King. I don't see the people I used to see, and for some reason, right at this second I have a feeling that there was something I forgot to do when I was there in Burger King, with those people. Or sitting in the hallways of Brookstone. Did I forget to do that one thing in highschool that makes highschool complete? Or is that just God telling me I've been too long gone from his side. I can't tell anymore.
How is it, in the midst of complete happiness, one has doubt? regret? and a feeling of not having done everything right?
10 days till I see my family and Columbus again =)
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