This has been an amazing Christmas break. The friends I made this break...you can't beat that. It was all going so well. When people asked me how my semester went, I had such a fun answer. and am I looking forward to going back?-fantastic answer to that, too.

But now I'm sitting here and my mind is racing, and I'm feeling like I'm screwing this life thing up again, and I'm suddenly hit by all the questions that come to a college students mind who realizes life is approaching a lot faster than planned.

Is growing up freaking anyone else out?

I want so badly to be truely close to a person, but given the opportunity I push those people away. Haven't I watched enough tv in my life to recognize that by now?

I was getting sad that I'm going to have to leave these friends I've made. But, when I asked one of them, doesn't it make you sad that you may never live in the same city as the people you are closest with? He said, no, not really. Because he knows no matter what he's doing there are people in his life who are his true friends and it doesn't matter where they are but that they are there. I like that. I think I'm starting to feel that way too.

Life is going to work out, I know. Sometimes it just flies by so quickly, I can't process it all fast enough.